28th August 2023

It's scary, because I need to "make it".

Taking back some criticisms of others I made in last night’s post

I've realised that there was a lot of misplaced blame in the post I wrote last night. I want to take back criticisms, accept responsibility, and apologise.

If I hadn’t had the 2014 accident my mum wouldn’t be in hospital right now

I hope one day I'll somehow wake up in April 2014, and be able to continue the life I'd had then, that I'd worked so hard to build, that I adored, that had been so powerful, and so full of potential, that I'd been so excited about.

Five others

What if someone makes you feel special, but they're making five other girls feel special at the same time?

A creature of the nerve-endings

I've just read the following passage in Stephen King's 'The Shining'. I feel it conveys how I've experienced life since my depression. It's not that I ever intended to give up 'civilized life' - it just happened. And it's not something that rational thought could've saved me from. “He felt that he had unwittingly stuck…