I had wanted to give to Music, I had wanted to take care of my dad, in the end they've both done more for me, than I've done to show my appreciation of them. I hate that.
Tag: grief
I’ve realised how I can make sense of all I’ve gone through. I will write an opera.
I was sitting in the cafe this morning, reading James Lovelock's 'Gaia', when what feels like my purpose hit me, and brought with it a feeling of calm, joy and completeness unlike anything I've experienced since my accident in 2014.
The four instincts that survived my depression, and the realisation that it would help me so much to be driven by joy again
If I could be motivated by joy again, not only could life be more meaningful again, but I know I would be better at managing my life, both the big and small tasks, and of course, at enjoying the journey.
Will give myself some time
I think I need some days. It's been a horrible month.
Don’t know how to make peace with having failed my dad
Yes he wasn't perfect, but he was someone who showed me, in so many ways, that he cared, be those ways not those of words or affection. I should've done more to show him I cared too.