Guilt for wasting time with the drummer, and plans to get back to music making

I am sorry Dad and Abu. I'm sorry Music. I'm even sorry to the community I feel there may have been here, starting to support me, who I used to update more regularly by writing here, who I used to feel a bond with. I never should've given the time I should've given to you: Dad, Mum, Abu, Music, and This Website's Supportive Community, to someone who never truly cared about me (the drummer). I hope to resume working on a music project next week.

Wondering how to get back to the end of 2020 / start of 2021

What prompted me to write here tonight, was thinking back to times when things had been going better and remembering how I would write here regularly then.

When a dog loves you

Loved for what's in your soul.

Love and unguarded stupidness

I hope I will always have this need fulfilled.

Please let him outlive me, but only if by doing so he will be happy

Having one to whom I can give affection and love - it heals.