28th August 2023

It's scary, because I need to "make it".

Feeling alone again

I really need to be around people who make me feel appreciated, who make me feel I'm worth trying for. Today I just feel as though I'm around people who are irritated by me, who view me as worthless, and I feel the lack of having someone here to tell me that I will be okay.

I did better this week

This week, I have, touch wood, been doing better at concentrating on some ideas to try to help myself, so I am proud of myself for that.

Going to try to use meditation to help me better focus on my projects

Thank you to my friend Phil, who has talked to me about the value of meditation for a long time now. I hope to finally put this part of his advice into practice, starting from today. I want to do better, I need to do better. I don't want to continue feeling so helpless, I have too much music in me.

I need to do better. I will try.

Been finding it hard to concentrate and make progress with my tracks these past two weeks. I will try a new system of focusing on my music from tomorrow. I hope it works.