People I feel grateful for having got to know a little in 2023

Anista, T, Niven, Finn.

I must be strong with the labels

I suppose it's good though. To know where I really stand with those people. To know how little I mean to them.

No longer blaming people who didn’t offer help

I find myself no longer feeling bitter or hurt by those who didn't ask me if they could do anything to help. Now I'd rather give those people, who didn't ask me if I need anything, the benefit of the doubt. Now I'd rather assume that those people just didn't know any better.

I’ve now received the cards and harness labels

I must try to have Abu wear the harness with the labels on it every day from now on. I must not be ashamed. I have somehow, in spite of how hopeless I've been feeling lately, managed to create these cards and harness labels. So I must try.

I wish I had a guardian

Someone who wants to nurture and protect me, who finds joy in my joy, in the same way that when I do those things to help my mum and my dog, I do those things not out of altruism, but because it makes me feel better, when I care for them, when I make their lives better. I want someone who wants to help me because it makes them feel better.